...As We Moved Together In The Dark...

So I'm sick. I've been laying in bed almost all day, listening to my music to keep myself from throwing up. Camera Obscura worked for a while, and then Death Cab had a turn, and finally I found that concentrating on Hellogoodbye, and all the memories that go along with them, helped immensely.

My room is so cold... My Mother turned the heat on in every other room, but apparently mine is too messy to deserve heat. So, instead I get to lay there, freezing, making my best attempt to not die. It's great fun, it really is.

Oh well, at least I can sustain myself with the fact that, despite my stomach telling me otherwise, I think I'm really, truly happy for the first time in a while. Well, okay, that's not true... I have been happy, but this is something different... It's like, my happiness before was true, but it was always marred with the the fact that I knew it was going to come to an end soon, and all I could see was dark grey clouds, in the distance, moving closer with every hour. So, when you'd ask "Is something wrong?" I'd think "You're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now." (Sorry, had to carry that reference all the way.) But now, it is an optimistic happiness, the happiness I used to have, because I know that for the first time in so long things are going right for me, I'm free and open, and I don't have to hide anymore. Because, to be quite honest with you, I don't think I could go back to it if I tried. But, I know that I don't even have to consider that, because Jill loves me, and I love her, and it's no longer a secret.

My God, I just realized that phrase, "The truth will set you free", is completely right!

Okay, I have to go throw up now, but in spite of this I feel even better than I felt before. I love you guys... And you most of all.

Yes, you know who you are.