...And One's Pointing His Tree Branch at Me...

Alright, I'm feeling a little better now... The walk did me quite good, despite my almost getting hit by a large truck (oddly enough, it was my kindness that saved me), I'm certainly feeling a bit better because of it. Er, because of the walk, not the truck.

Either way, I thought a lot about the Josh thing, and how he asked me for the truth today... And it bothered me a lot that I didn't tell him, because if I was in his position, I would much, much rather know the truth... Because frankly, despite the fact that I don't care, I recognize that this is really quite unfair to him. I mean... I'd want him to tell me, why can't I do the same? Am I scared that he won't believe me? No, no I don't think that's it... Am I scared that she'll lie to him, tell him the ultimate lie, against my ultimate truth? Perhaps that's a large part of it... But most of all, I think I'm scared of what will happen to her.

I also wish that Jill and my friends got along... Well, that's not true. Jill and Claire get along, and I love that. What I'm really wishing was that Jill got along with Dave and Jodi... I mean, when it comes to Dave... Besides Cato, Dave is easily my best, closest friend. I frankly do not know where I would be without Dave. And Jodi... Well, I love Jodi to pieces, she ranks right up beside Dave as two of my very favourite people on earth. So... The fact that they don't get along really hurts me, because as my three favourite people on earth... I just wish there wasn't any conflict there. But, of course, nothing is set in stone yet I suppose... There's still time.

Well, anyway, I'm feeling better. I think I shall go have a shower now... And then wait for Jill to come on MSN, because despite the fact that I'm somewhat okay, that's really mostly a lie until I talk to her.

Until then, I love you Jillian.

(Addendum... Or, is this an Epilogue? Yes, an Epilogue sounds much better. So...

Epilogue: Yes, just as I thought, her love makes everything better. I feel much better now, much better... Thank God for her, I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have her. I love you baby!)